Sometimes I swear my mind NEVER stops going.. One day it might just be the death of me. I often find myself wishing I could shut my thoughts off completely. Pointless? Maybe, but it would sure allow me some comfort. This situation leads to these little phases in which I can't sleep regardless of how tired my body is. This deprivation therefore induces my insanity, which is the point that I am at right now. Hence the rambling about my thoughts..
I probably wouldn't be so distressed if it wasn't for this thing called college. Yes I still have awhile but all these applications, scores and scholarships are making me ill. More than just college itself I worry about making decisions. Something I have always seemed to have a difficult time with. I have a terrible case of wanting what I can't have. I just pray that sooner or later I can completely make up my mind about something in general.
To whom it may concern I have found a therapy for all this stress and madness. It is music. Not just any kind music but the good stuff. The stuff that makes you think so much that you can't think anymore or even the stuff that makes no sense. So while you try to figure out the meaning, you distract your mind from more critical problems. Try it, it works.
